February 02, 2007

Quite Through Tunnel

Quite Through Tunnel

I am currently in the process of developing a new thought process. Trying at each moment to be positive. To catch myself when my thoughts and my words come out in a negative manner, either about myself or about someone else. I have come to realize I have no real control over things- but I can make choices to help shape an out come. There is a subtle difference, and it has taken me a long time to sink into realizing what that difference is.

Tunnel to China Town

Part of this is a practice of ahisma- it is my yoga practice that I carry on throughout the day. I might not find myself in down dog or virabadrasan I each day, but I can start to make my record skip on positive words and thoughts.

So I am being quite through the tunnel of transformation- instead of screaming and honking as I walk through the darkness towards the new light. I look and see the white tiles along the walls of the tunnel and see that sometimes clean and shiny walls, and sometimes I see graffiti sprayed messages.
go with the flow
Neither one is better than the other, it is just nice to notice and see the sights as I go...

and because it is FRIDAY and since everyone else seems to be posting there "very firsts", and because I haven't hit the booth in awhile, AND because we are TRYING, yes TRYING to get the baby "mojo" flowing in this body of mine (there I said it)(yes, you read that right-can some of you beautiful, pregnant woman come over and rub my belly so that I can get a little o' the babe luck up in this joint?)
I give you this very wonderful, hyserical and classic photobooth strip of Andy and his 'rents at a most adorable age...
Photo Booth Friday...
now get on over to Hula's for some more action from the back section.
(I am so having a rap off right now with Angelaand that was just for her- name it girl, name it.)


Jecca said...

I Love this way of living. It is a constant struggle to focus on the positive. Especially in this society that feels so entitled. Keep up the good fight. I am trucking along as well...

Jecca said...

I have just moved into an apartment last weekend and I am pouring my soul into making it my home. i think that it will be very therapuetic. Thanks for your kindness.

Stacie said...

great thoughts from a great woman!!

Nessie Noodle said...

Thanks ladies. It takes time to create "possitive ruts" for your mind to fall into.
having this blog helps!

Rachel said...

Wow, this sounds like a pretty profound change in thought process. Best of luck -- I'm guessing you'll see many benefits to this. (Were that I were as mentally disciplined.)

Nessie Noodle said...

profound yes- over night? NO.
just like any other "practice" (knitting, music, yoga-postures, marathon running) one has to do just that... Practice.
just after I posted today, I found myself bad mouthing a co-worker... practice- pull it in don't judge, just notice and make the change in the habit.
Thanks for your well wishes. :) are you BACK!?

Magatha said...

There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so. ~W.S.

I am working on this myself and it is tough. I've spent my entire life in a sarcastic, emo funk. It's made me quite a "character" but has done nothing to build my character. One thing I am able to do that surprises me is to just stay quiet. Even though my brain jumps to the sarcastic/ negative comment, that doesn't mean I need to say it out loud.
I am also practising "finding the cookie". Looking for the good.

kristen said...

What a delicious strip you've shared with us. Ahhh, old school booths, let's hope they don't vanish.

Kathleen said...

it will happen.
of course, i wanted to scream everytime someone said that to me.

i think that your quest to have positive thoughts is a good start towards conception. keep your heart open and be good to yourself.
my sister in law once said, after we had been trying with a fertility doctor for a year, "cradle yourself". i bawled when she said it cuz i had been so hard on myself and angry that i wasn't pregnant yet.
so i started.
and it helped.
and i stopped going to that doctor.

my acupuncturist (who i went to for fertility aid) told me to open my heart and have clarity on what i was willing to go through to get pregnant. she told me to meditate and open my heart to the soul that was ready to come into my life.
and i did.
and one month from the day that i met her, i conceived.
of course, i think the pint of guiness i had that night at dinner helped, too.

we tried for two years. earnestly.

i wish, now, that i could go back in time and whisper to my hopeless self, last year, "it will happen".

i will pray for you and send baby vibes across the skies to you, dear lady.

Becky said...

Wonderful goals. For the rest...just relax, make time, and it will come along.

Left-handed Trees... said...

Thank you for the link to the ahisma--very interesting and enlightening. Good luck to you in generating the baby mojo...that photobooth strip is just delicious!

Nessie Noodle said...

thank you everyone- thank you

angela said...

beastie boys : body movin'
We need body rocking
Not perfection

nice one!!!

what a wonderful practice you have begun, and i am so excited for you and your man.
what a cute baby he was- love his face in the last photo :)

Knitting Momma said...

This is SUCH a cool post, Nessie. So cool. I'm just beginning to walk the yoga path, and you are so right about building positive ruts rather than staying in the negative ones. I'm so glad you got to meet up with Ani, too!

Blessings to you...